Being a mother can be challenging. Being a mother and juggling business and family under the same roof 24/7 can seem impossible.
Last week I saw Elizabeth Holmes's story and instead of being inspired I felt inferior.
Then the crazy set in.....
I was under attack, one of my weaknesses was in full range. I was signing us up for delivery of a box of veggies and fruits delivered to our door. My husband walked by my computer and said oh that's a cute website. I can not even begin to explain the heat that filled this spicy girl's body.
I swore to take a vow of silence for the day. Then I continued to wallow in self pity. He had never complimented my website, oh yeah I forgot mine SUCKS. Oh and all this "mompreneur" stuff is just as much BS as I thought it was in 2010 as I transitioned from the cool working mom who provided for my family and slowly transformed into the self inflicted demise of a wanna be entrepreneur that I have become.
To give you a little background on the women I affectionally refer to as myself the thing I remember yelling at my first husband while I was expecting my first child was "I will not be DOMESTICATED". I was so excited to be a mother and I was so ready now to start that day creating a legacy for her.
Legacy has always been important to me, and what leaving a legacy means to me has changed throughout the years.
My oldest is now 14 years old and I am not the same person I was when I had her.
As I type this it becomes more clear that this is a hangup I have had and as I began to detox myself of this parasitical limiting belief I have been carrying around with me for over a decade I have been unable to embrace my life fully and enjoy it because of this feeling.
Let's get real, If I were coaching myself I would say, the most unhealthy thing you can do is compare yourself to others.
Also, comparing a mother of FIVE to women who have no children is ridiculous.
There is _no_ comparison.
It is a different life, the playing field is different, and the timeline is different.
Unfortunately, having been on the other side as a successful single working mom to a married one with a husband who can and does provide it can feel not so sexy or successful.
It also comes with an entirely different set of expectations.
To cut through the darkness that lasted over 12 hours and started a domino effect of all the things I can find sucky about myself it ended up fasting for the day. Let's just throw in that I was exasperated by my weight, I _was_ (notice past tense) weighing in at my heaviest in my life.
Fast forward this week, I am sitting on top of the world.
Why? Because that little bout with darkness drove me to see clearly where I am lacking and it gave me a good kick in the butt to move my life in the direction I want to go.
God has blessed me beyond measure. I didn't know it at the time but that was just the kick I needed to start a cascade of activities that has helped me exponentially change how I feel about my business and where it is going.
Most importantly though I am a better version of myself than I was last week, and I am so excited to share with you my journey of self discovery.
I will be launching a new program comes July 1st that I have been working on for over a year.
There will be a new site, my corporate site that will be launched thanks to the team at http://cabaretdesign.com/.
I will share tips that have turned my ship around and brought some organization to the chaos that can brew from being a Mompreneur.
Until next time......