Despite us moving in October, we are still not all the way settled in. Going from our 4200 mansion ( :) ) to a 1500 sqft apartment has put quite the squeeze on us. We have purged and purged, and unbelievably I think we still have some things to purge.
As I see my house finally go on the market in Texas, it is bitter sweet. There is a part of me that wants to jump on a plane and get back to being comfortable, eat Marth soul nourishing food, watch some netflix binge for hours on our big screen, invite our friends and family over for swimming, drive on a Texas highway through DT houston and on into Brazoria county to see my Nana.
I miss her so.
I think about what we have done in the last 6 months and it is frightening.
Sold or gave away most of our things, moved from the Houston metro for the first time in 37 years to a place I have never been and we knew no one in a place that is way different from what we have been used to.
With five kids.
Yesterday I had breakfast with my kids across the street and when the man took all 6 of their chocolate milk glasses and replaced them with 6 fresh water glasses I found myself blessing whoever was going to wash those dishes. - Thank you, thank you, thank you
When I went into my closet and pulled out fresh clothes for Lydia, I am grateful each day that Alexandri washed a load for Lydia and hung them up for me - Thank you, thank you, thank you
Today I wasn't feeling good and I was grateful when David said "I can make noodles, spaghetti and sausage and have it ready in 15 minutes" I looked at him and said "well that was worth the move" - thank you, thank you, thank you
I used to have six sparkling toilets and now I am grateful if one that is flushed before I got there - thank you, thank you, thank you
I know that this recalibration is temporary, I know that there will be a day I miss the simplicity of it, the intimacy. We will get a bigger place we want at least 3K sqft for the 7 of us.
We do play more here, we read more here, we have more interactions with people outside our family in one week than we did sometimes in 3 months at home.
I don't have to wonder where or what my kids are doing in the "big house" because we are all here together.
It has changed forever our family dynamics.
We are closer, we are becoming more grateful, more forgiving, we are playing more as a team.
No doubt growth can be messy however we are growing, no doubt.